Right now I'm listening to soft music. The kind I always do when my heart is sore. Something about listening to music like that helps ease pain. It creates a strange illusion that everything will turn out right. It's hard to explain. You know in movies when the character faces their emotional challenges in a room by themselves? There's always a sad song playing. Everyone watching is cheering them on, hoping that they'll get through it in the end. And they always do. Maybe it makes me feel like I'm more important than I really am, but I like to imagine that everyone is cheering me on and that it will all turn out for the best, just like a movie. It's also kind of nice to wallow in self pity for a few minutes and mull things over in a room by myself.
I also find that when I'm struggling emotionally I tend to read more. I love joining the world that an author created for me. It's often much more exciting than mine. And the main character usually ends up super happy, which makes me feel like I will too. Now don't get me wrong. I don't only read when I'm upset. I read other times too. It's just such a good escape from the world when I'm struggling.
Probably the best escape for me is the temple. Today I got to go to the temple while my aunt and uncle get sealed to my little cousin. I couldn't watch the ceremony of course, but just knowing it was happening and seeing their smiling faces after they came out made me so happy. It is such a sacred building and a blessing in my life. I love the peace of mind and heart that can be found within it's consecrated walls. Watching all the newlyweds walk out made my day. I want to find a special someone who I can get sealed to in the temple just like them.
Anyway, that's the end of my strange blog entry.
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